December 21st

Today we woke up in the hospital and order room service for breakfast and we had the most gross pancakes ever! It tasted like it was really old mix or something i really prefer mckay hospitals food over ogden regional lol. I had a very down day today which isn't like me but i couldn't stop crying. My grandma and my aunt trish came to visit after they left it was time for jarrom to go to work so i cried even more because i felt alone even though jarrom is so much help i was just extremely nervous to be all by myself. My mom came up and stayed until about 10:30 and it was nice to just talk with her. She makes everything better i love my mom. Our midwife came up to talk and make sure i was ok and i just love her! If we ever decide to have more kids (right now its a NO!) she will be the one delivering it agian! While mom was up there we found out that a lady that had her baby today that the baby didn't make it :( it makes me so sad to think about and i am so greatful that we have a healthy little girl that joined our family.